A year ago, I wrote my first post on this blog. It was all about how thinking about my future is scary. Today, a year later, my future is still unsure. I don't know for sure where God is leading me. However, I have a better idea than I did this time last year. A few days ago, I had an interview for an opportunity that I'm really excited about and covering in prayer. I don't know how that will play out, but I can definitely say that God has really grown me in how I trust Him with my future. I used to worry about it, and stress out about it whenever I tried to come up with goals or make a plan.
During my interview for this mission opportunity, I was asked about my goals, and all I could come up with is "I want to glorify God in whatever He calls me to do." At first it was just my way of honestly conveying my thoughts when I didn't feel like I had an answer for the question being asked. Then I realized it was an answer in itself. I don't need to have specific goals as long as I'm pursuing God and seeking to glorifying Him now and with the plans He lays out for my future.
When well-meaning people ask me what I'm doing with my life, or plan to do in the future, I only have a vague answer as of right now, yet as long as my future leads me to glorify God, I'm satisfied with that answer. I use to think I needed to have a regular, full-time job in order to feel like my future is set. Now, I'm content with the work that I'm doing now, and I'm excited about where God is leading me next.
So, a year later, I still don't know for sure what my future will look like, but I'm following God and seeking to glorify Him wherever I go.